Right now I am working on a secret project.* I am on draft 17,000,000 of a part of my project (not even the whole project!) because I can’t decide how I want to move forward. I am continually tweaking and then changing my opinions on the tweaks. I am a pretty indecisive person generally (I am working on this but . . .), so committing to a creative decision causes me A TON of stress. However, more and more I have been finding that wrestling with indecision is often more stressful than actually making a wrong decision. To get myself out of this spiral of indecision, I have been trying to decide things based on what other people might like. This is obviously not good either.
Clearly, I am lacking a fully-baked vision for my project. If I had a strong vision for each aspect of my project, I would be able to make focused decisions about how to move forward artistically. It wouldn’t be so difficult to make a cohesive piece. Additionally, I would not be so worried about what other people may or may not like. To be honest, using someone else’s likes and dislikes as a basis for deciding MY creative work has been foolish and unhelpful so far. How am I supposed to know what someone else will or will not respond positively to in any given moment? I can make a guess or prediction, but why would I want MY creative work to be based on conjecture about someone else, when I can make something that I love that is based on MY vision?
So with all this said, I need to pause, reconnect to my ideas, and cultivate my vision. Otherwise, what’s the point?
*To Be Revealed Soonish!
Compulsive Creation 