Must Watch: Your Lie In April

I am obsessed with ‘Your Lie in April.’ It is based on the manga of the same name. It is about Kousei, a piano prodigy, who loses his ability to hear his own playing after his mom dies. His mother was his piano teacher and super abusive, so his trauma is hella linked to the piano. He meets Kaori, a free-spirited violinist. He falls in love with her so there is some teen romance angst if you’re into that sort of thing (I 100% am). With the help of Kaori, and their two besties Tsubaki and Watari, Kousei finds himself and is able to return to music. This anime has a lot of beautiful reflections on music, self-expression, friendship, and love. PLUS, there is a ton of awesome music throughout, including this piece and this piece.

Anyway, one reason I have been thinking a lot about this show is because of this scene.

The set-up: Kaori is competing in a violin competition. There is a set piece that all of the competitors have to play. The audience is super bored until Kaori comes on and LIGHTS THE STAGE ON FIRE with HER version of Beethoven.

The subtitles aren’t on this clip but the audience reactions are all basically some version of one of the following:

  • “Is this the same song?”
  • “WHOA THIS SHIT IS LIT AF!”
  • “She isn’t sticking to score! This is BLASPHEMY!”

Basically, she does her own thing. For her, the score is more of a suggestion about how to play the song. She puts herself into her playing and the audience is moved.

This made me think about my own playing. As y’all (maybe?) know, I have been working on this sonatina for a while. However, I have recently felt the desire to break free a little. I want to mess with the dynamics and the tempo and whatever else I am not allowed to mess with in a classical era piece. At the same time, I want to able to play this piece “properly.” I don’t want to be unconventional merely due to a lack of technical proficiency. That’s just being lazy and calling it self-expression. If I am going to go against the grain, it needs to be because I am making a deliberate choice to do so. So, I am still diligently practicing my scales and using a metronome, so that if/when I pull a Kaori on this piece, it’s not just a copout because I couldn’t play my sixteenth notes fast enough.

All that to say, watch this anime. It is on both Netflix and Hulu. DO NOT read the comments on the YouTube videos I have linked to. They are FULL of spoilers. People have no respect.

 

 

Photo Credit: Piano from an illustrated sample book & price list of Palm Letter Company, Cincinnati, 1901

Geometrical Drawings

In last week’s post I shared some cards I’d made. For one of them, I needed to draw a perfect triangle. Well, this girl has carefully avoided anything remotely resembling math as much as possible, so I had to do some research and then pull out my hardly-used compass. The triangle indeed came out perfect, and it made me wonder: what else can I do with this tool?

So, this week I spent time playing around with a compass, protractor, ruler, and pencil to create the geometrical drawings below:

This was the first design I came up with using the compass, which made me think of a temple.

Even just the compass by itself can create a wide variety of shapes.

Bubble Worlds, Jessie Huffaker, 2018

I used the compass to draw some circles and was then inspired to watercolor them into worlds.

Geometric Art, lotus design

At this point I started researching some compass designs online, including this mandala inspired one.

Geometric Art, Seven Circle Design

This one I adapted from this seven-circle flower design. I plan on painting over this one, so that’s why the lines are so faint.

Sun Rays, Geometric Art, Jessie Huffaker, 2018

This was the first drawing I used my protractor on, to create the angles of the rays. I also used a compass to make the circle and a ruler to draw the lines of the rays. I finished it with colored pencils.

Geometric Art, Cardioid

I found these last designs on this blog, and fell madly in love with the protractor!

Geometric Art, Ellipse

Geometric Art, Concentric Circles

 

I plan on painting over some of these designs with watercolor, so you’ll probably be seeing those next week. I love the idea of matching the precision of these geometric designs with the organic style of watercolor. I did wonder while doing this project: are these creations art? If anyone following the exact steps I took would create an identical image, is it still art? There’s not really any room for individuality when drawing a straight line upon an exact angle. But the totality, the choices I made on where to draw the lines, what images I saw and pulled out, that seems to return to an individual aesthetic… I’d love to hear anyone’s thoughts on this!

 

Ballet!!!!!!

So, for the past few weeks I have been taking a ballet workshop at Ballet Austin. I originally started taking their ballet workshops during 1L. I was inspired by the Australian teen dance show Dance Academy. This show is amazing, life-changing, and awe-inspiring. You can find all three seasons on Hulu. It starts off a bit slow and like a typical teen dance show. So, if you hate that shit, know that it gets WAY better. The second season is truly excellent television. The third season is a wonderful conclusion to the show. ANYWAY, some of my classmates also watched the show and we decided to take a ballet class together. It was AWESOME!

 

I recently decided to start ballet again because my physical health has been on the decline since I took the bar exam two years ago. I needed to MOVE. So I signed up, and I have just completed week three of the 6-week workshop. In addition to our barre work, we have begun working on pirouettes. Now, this is the third time I have taken this particular ballet workshop. Here are my current pirouette skills:

I have decided that third time’s the charm and THIS will be the workshop in which I finally manage to do a pirouette. Wish me luck!

Handmade Birthday Cards

Since I swore to only give out cards I make myself this year, I’ve had two birthday card projects this month: One for Claire (my co-blogger here on CC for those not in the know) and one for Zack, a friend here in Boulder. Throughout this process, I’ve discovered I LOVE making cards for my friends and family! These projects allow me to really focus on the individual and explore a wide variety of styles and techniques to make something I think they’ll love.

So for my post this week I’m sharing some of the steps along the way to creating these handmade birthday cards and of course the final results (which I was super pleased with in both cases). There were many challenges that arose during the painting process, but I never got bogged down in negative thinking, just found workarounds or tried again. This was creativity at its most enjoyable for me!

 

First, let’s begin with Claire’s birthday card:

Claire had asked for a mermaid painting a little while back, so the choice of subject for her card was obvious. I knew I wanted to incorporate pearls, because on her last visit she’d bought a pearl bracelet she’d fallen in love with. In my journal I sketched out a few quick ideas.

The initial sketch I made in my journal for Claire's mermaid birthday card

I then took my favorite idea and did a light pencil sketching on my choice of coldpress paper.

I experimented with a quick color study to decide on what colors to use and practice with creating a pearl look. The metallic paints don’t show well in digital format, but I was using a pearl Greenleaf & Blueberry metallic paint to give the pearls their opalescence.

And here’s the final result! I made the mistake of doing an immediate blue wash over the entire painting to give the skin and tail a blue undertone, which worked well, but it also hid most of my pencil design beneath the blue (having never painted over pencil before, I’d thought the lines would be more resilient… live and learn!). I had to simplify the design to just the mermaid and the largest pearl, as these were the only lines I could still just make out.

This is the first painting of a person where I played with shading the skin for shadows and light spots. I struggled with drawing the hand (why are hands so hard?!), so it turned into a sort of flipper instead. This painting had a lot of tiny detail work, which was challenging. Struggles aside, I’m SUPER proud of how my mermaid turned out, and I really do see Claire when I look at her!

I tried out my calligraphy on the back of her card once I’d completed the painting. This caused a near-catastrophe, when I chose to add some splashes of gold using a new gold ink pen. Turns out, this ink RUNS, and it dropped some heavy spots on the paper, which nearly bled through onto the painting on the other side (AHHHHH!). I had to do some serious detail work to hide these dark spots on the original painting and it made me question the wisdom of using the back side of a painting as a place to write on…

The last step was to get the envelope together, and the only size I had on hand that would fit the painting was a boring manilla envelope. This actually turned into a positive, as it gave me an opportunity to use a white pencil to create an interesting design. I’ve covered over our addresses on the image below, but otherwise here’s what the final result looked like! The stars were actually a random doodle I made in my journal one day and I love it so much I’ve been using it in different designs ever since.

 

Now, for Zack’s card:

Ever since I’d made Claire’s old-timey silhouette valentine I knew I wanted to try a similar idea for Zack’s birthday card. Zack’s the co-founder of the digital security company Rarefied, along with my partner Brian. I work for them, and thus have seen the several iterations of the company’s logo. It began with a silhouette of a man and turned into a triangle with an arrow. I wanted to merge both in this design for his birthday card, and began with some simple sketches in my journal.

Quick sketches in my journal to figure out the basic design for this birthday card

It took two previous tries (on the right side of the image below) to get the process down for the third and final piece, seen here in its early stage on the left. Working with an initial India ink wash and then doing a second layer wash of a black watercolor meant that keeping the white triangle white was even trickier than I had initially thought. I also messed with a few different black watercolors before finding the mix I liked best.

It took several tries to get the final card

Here’s the piece with the background wash and man’s silhouette complete. Now I just needed to remove the masking fluid from the triangle (hoping all the while it was still white!), paint in the party hat, and clean up the lines.

Letting the background washes of India ink and black watercolor dry

Here’s the final result! I loved creating the various layers of black for the background (and the India ink wash was perfect for this project), and the bright splash of color of the hat really gives a lovely contrast.

The final result for Zack's Rarefied birthday card

I again practiced my calligraphy on the back of the card, using the same Beth style from The Postman’s Knock that I wrote about here. For this card I chose to work with a super heavyweight paper (300# Arches coldpress), so I wasn’t worried about any ink bleeding through to the other side on this painting. I splashed some metallic paint for a bit of pizzazz and decorated the envelope with a simple “Z.”

The envelope and message for Zack's Rarefied birthday card

 

I’ll be sharing more of my card creations in the future, and if anyone else would like to play along I’d love to see what you create!

A Bit of an Update

Over the past little while the following three things have developed increased importance in my life.

I. The metronome function on my keyboard

A metronome is a device or app that clicks/ticks/dings/talks at a regular interval so that a musician can maintain a consistent tempo. It sounds like this. I have started practicing with a metronome because the piece I am learning right now requires it. Classical era pieces have strict requirements regarding rhythm and tempo. Everything has to be precise and consistent. It’s a pain. However, practicing with the metronome (its almost a skillset within itself) has helped me to stabilize my tempo and my teacher noticed an improvement! Yay for growth!

II. MuseScore

My theory and composition lessons require me to actually compose music. Handwriting notation is a slow and arduous process. After I bitched about it several times, my teacher told me about MuseScore. MuseScore is a FREE online music notation software. It is AWESOME! You can create music right on your computer and there is a playback function that allows you to hear what you have written. It has A LOT of capabilities so I can (eventually) do some complex music composing with it. Also, it is WAY easier than handwriting everything and then having to erase and rewrite every time I want to make a change. #technology

III. Spotify

I asked my composition teacher where he gets his ideas. One thing he said was that he gets inspiration from listening to music. Kind of like all of those writers who say if you want to write, read a lot. This likely goes without saying but all this reading is meant to be in addition to actually writing. Anyway, it is the same idea with writing music. If you want to compose music, you gotta also listen to music. In my listening so far I am getting a bigger sense of what is possible. I can write ANYTHING! My song can be ANYTHING! It’s really cool!

 

Homepage Image Credit: Bruno Schmitz advertisement for Ibach-Pianos, 1898

 

The In-Between Paintings

In addition to my projects that make it on this blog there are many little in-between paintings that are more experimental. Often, I end up dissatisfied with the end result, but these paintings are the explorations that allow me to improve and create the pieces that I’m most proud of. They’re the necessary test studies, the sometimes ugly, often bizarre results of sheer spontaneity (what happens if I try this?!).

I’ve been more active on Instagram lately, sharing more of my day-to-day creations and finding new artists to inspire me. Along with the positives, this increase in time spent on Instagram has also brought up stronger self-criticism and doubt (Claire wrote a great piece on her own Instagram angst). It’s hard for me to share artwork that I feel isn’t amazing, especially when I see the SPECTACULAR works put out there by professional artists. It’s of course remedial to compare myself with anyone who’s spent years perfecting a craft, but if I’m not super aware of this comparing-habit the thoughts bubble up and put a cloud over the works that I create. Worse, it can inhibit my creativity when starting on a new blank page.

There’s no easy, quick fix for this fear and gloom that arises, only the hard slog of bringing negative patterns to light and attempting to spin gold out of all the shi–straw. So, today I’m sharing just a few of the many paintings that never made it on the blog, but without which I wouldn’t be where I am now.

When Claire and I started this blog we committed to sharing our creative steps–the good, the bad, and the ugly. This isn’t just a cliché ripped from a western. This is the heart and soul of our creative quest here: to push through the limiting, critical thoughts and create anyway, no matter what, compulsively. The final piece isn’t what’s key here, it’s the fact that I LOVE to watercolor. So, I’ll return again and again to appreciating the process, not just the end result.

 

HOUSE CONCERT!

As y’all may know, I have been working on this piece for the past little while. I was originally planning on playing it for my music school’s June recital, but now I’m kind of over it. My prediction is that I will be completely over it by June. It is hard for me to keep a piece performance ready when I am over it. So, I have decided to have an in-home concert sometime in the next month or so. This will be dope for several reasons:

  1. It will be another opportunity for me to improve my performance skills and increase my comfort level.
  2. This is the hardest piece I have attempted to date so heck yeah I’m going to perform it! I plan on being very proud of my progress with this piece. Also, music should be shared!
  3. I will have enough time to finish learning it to the best of my ability but not so much time that I’ll hate my life.
  4. This will help me continue my quest in life to do as much old-timey stuff as humanly possible. More below.

Before recorded music, and before musical instruments evolved into their current forms, music was frequently performed in people’s homes or other more intimate settings. In fact, concert halls are a relatively recent development. From what I can tell, fancy people would go to the homes of other fancy people and they would listen to still other fancy people play music.

What attracts me to this idea, aside from the innate bougieness of it, is the level of intimacy that can be achieved from a music performance in a smaller space. An audience is able to interact with the music and the musician because they are right there. There can be dialogue.The music becomes even more of a shared experience in environments like these. In fact, this dynamic is what I like most about my performance classes. The music automatically becomes more collaborative. It’s awesome! All that to say, I am VERY EXCITED about this and I am hoping this atmosphere helps me to not freak TF out. Stay tuned.

 

Homepage Image Credit: Viola Tricolor, In Bildern und Versen, München/New York, Stroefer & Kirchner 1876.

Ignite the Jetpack!

I had a vision around this time last year (not in like a super spiritual sense, just ya know a picture in my head), of a girl with glowing hair jet-packing her way out of watery depths with golden bubbles shimmering beneath her. I immediately did a brief sketch in the journal I keep for Compulsive Creation and thought “One day, when I’m good enough I’ll try to bring this image to life with watercolor.” But this week, I was inspired by the notion that if I keep waiting to be good enough I’ll never get good enough. Ideas would turn to dust in my mind and never take material form unless I pick up the brush and TRY!

So, I’ve created my piece “Ignite the Jetpack!” It was a very challenging but never discouraging project. Below are some of the steps along the way.

The original quick sketch in my journal for what would become "Ignite the Jetpack"

Above is the very simple sketch I made over a year ago so I didn’t forget the idea.

 

My sketches to figure out how a face looks when it's looking up

Once I decided to take the project on I did a quick face study, trying to figure out how a face looks when it’s looking up. Since my drawing skills are super basic, this is always a difficult step for me in any project involving a human figure.

 

Tracing over my pencil sketch with waterproof pen

I wasn’t confident enough yet in my painting skills to just paint over faint pencil lines, so I chose to go over the pencil sketch with pen. This turned out to be a bit of a mistake, as my choice of coldpress paper meant that the paper had a very textured surface–not good for drawing fine straight lines. One side of the face came out a bit wonky and since I couldn’t erase, I had to march forward with a slight imperfection. It will haunt me forever… 🙂

 

Early attempts at painting bubbles and developing my color scheme for the piece

Next I created a simple color study, so I could choose in advance what particular shades of blue and yellow I would use, as well as experiment with how to create a bubble. This is actually the first painting with which I took the time to do this preparation, and it was incredibly helpful. I’ll definitely do color studies as a general rule moving forward!

 

Adding masking fluid before doing my initial India ink wash

I chose to use masking fluid on the bubbles, as I wasn’t confident I could avoid washing right over them, especially since I wanted to do an initial wash of Indian ink. At this stage I was ready to paint!

 

Nearing completion on the painting, just needed to take off the masking fluid and paint the bubbles

At this point only the bubbles and a few other areas remained unpainted. Then I would do minor touch-ups.

 

Completed painting

Here’s the final result! I decided to go with different shades of gold metallic paint as well as light touches of blue to create the bubbles. I also used permanent white gouache to create the white edges and highlights of the bubbles.

 

I hope to paint this piece several times as my skills advance in the years ahead. This would allow me to see what’s changed with my style and skills, and continue to breathe life into a piece that is so compelling for me.

 

#RANT

I was talking to some friends and someone asked me why, at the age of 30, I started taking theory lessons. And my first thought was “Bitch, because I want to!” BUT since this is a person who I like a lot and she didn’t meant anything by it, I toned down the hostility and answered her question sans profanity.

Anyway, part of the reason the question rankled was because she threw my age into it. Why shouldn’t a thirty year old, or someone of any age, pursue something that interests them? Why do we believe that children corner the market on developing new skills and having varied interests? Why is it so easy to believe that once you reach a certain age, it’s too late to learn and do dope shit? What is that about?! It is so limiting! Either way the time will pass and you will grow older. You may as well get older doing something that you care about or find cool.

So, if something intrigues you, try it! If you want to do something, do it! If you want to learn something, learn it! Yes, there will be challenges. Yes, there will be haters. DO IT ANYWAY! Don’t let boring, or scared, or whack people stop you from doing cool shit! More importantly, don’t stop yourself from doing cool shit!

 

Faux Calligraphy

Since I’ve committed this year to only sending out cards that I hand-make, I felt that it was time to tackle some calligraphy. While my handwriting isn’t lamentable, it also isn’t anything to write home about, so developing a fancy version of writing for fancy occasions has always been a creative goal. This development of hand-eye coordination will also improve my watercolor skills (this girl’s still struggling with shaky hands!).

I went to an event recently that featured Lindsey Bugbee, founder of The Postman’s Knock, and I was so impressed with her skill and knowledge that I decided to purchase one of her calligraphy worksheet sets. I chose the Beth Style and have been practicing for about a week now. Per her recommendation, I’ve started out doing “faux” calligraphy, which means using a normal pen rather than a fancy dip pen (though I intend to move on to the dip pen once I’ve got the basics down).  Lindsey mentioned that you can also use a dip pen using watercolors as your ink, so that will be another technique to play with in the future!

Here’s what I was able to write after a week of intermittent practice, with stars and metallic paint to hide the errors in a glimmery haze:

Beth Style Faux Calligraphy, based on a worksheet I purchased from The Postman's Knock

 

As a final note: I just wanted to mention again, that many of our posts here on this blog heavily feature people and products that we find worthwhile. We do NOT receive any money for this featuring, we just love to share the resources that have helped us on our creative journeys. If we ever do benefit from name-dropping, we will of course disclose that fact.
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